alone again...

[mykil]

OK CC I can feel you from here; as of now I am starting to wonder why you chose the wine industry when you could have had great career in counseling, being a psychiatrist is far more challenging than making a bottle of wine no? LOL! I am glad you are here and feel you are definitely an added addition to our little community! I guess if you were to go into the health field you would probably not have made it to our little commune, so I shouldn't WHINE! Get it? LMAO!!!!!

Anywayz I love the advice and the upfront theories you present and are all open to having my brain picked apart and analyzed to see what really makes me tick. Although I do think you are a little one sided toward you wayz on life. Everyone is! I want to express and learn all walks of life and keep them all close to my heart. Ones man/woman's theory is not everyone’s way sooo I do want to understand them all. In by what you present to me, I take this and evolve with this and turn this into myself, it becomes apart of me. This is real life not read anywhere but on a little BulletinBoard in the woods, in the country, north of the bay, under some trees [oh god me a break already]! This is us, we, and our conscience community. This is where it is at! I hope you stick around and evolve with us all. Take some peoples advise with a grain of salt, DIX ;} and others with a large laughing out load and everything will be fine! Just like your wine! To love us is to accept us all even the ones that appear to be nothing less than cynical. Those sometimes are the ones that turn out to be the most entertaining! Shutting them off is like cutting a severe lifeline to you soul!!!! LOL!!! PEACE! And welcome home!

Mykil, what you write is nothing less than other-wordly in its beauty, majesty and profundity. You blow me away with your incredible degree of depth.

And, no, I don't want to get married!

cc

[MsTerry]

Take good care of this cute guy

Ohhh Misty the only other person on that list of yours would be myself yes !!!! \

[Tinque]

Personally Mykil , You are who you are and if you were not your "normal " out of almost control flirtatious self , you would not be you and I really appreciate YOU , so be yourself and I can tell you from my heart that without people like you , there would be less smiles in the world and we surely all need as much smile time that is possibly possible ! You always make me smile. You are a good man ! Should we do a nude portrait ! Hopefully that thought will make you laugh , besides the big hug I will embrace you upon this day ! LOL...

[hales]

Mykil pointed out that I pressed the "wrong" button, so here is what I sent to him:


> Hey, everyone,
> I really wanted to revisit the "bubble theory" whatever that is.. I
> think I made it up, but I'm not sure..
>
> yet, here you (Mykil), are asking, are not all boundaries made up?? if
> you have a bubble, what have you got, an inside and an outside,
> separated by a membrane, a molecule or so thick, of water with a tiny
> amount of surfactant.. (soap or some-such..).. the boundary consists of
> hardly anything, but it's created by the dynamic tension of what is
> inside and what is not.. it's really a side effect of various forces,
> but coincidentally, it exhibits amazing properties of buoyancy,
> resilience, refraction and even.. beauty! When two bubbles meet, they
> generally pop, fuse or merge. A buncha small bubbles could make a foam,
> a froth or a lather.. but no one has to exert any real thought for a
> bubble to exist. Likewise, do we really consciously create our
> boundaries, generally? I think in general, (being more serious here.. ),
> it's often a learned response. I guess, when as a kid, you lose that
> magic openness, at the same time you learn to create boundaries. Would
> you agree, it's really a loss, as well as a gain. (Defining what is inside
> and what is "outside" one's own personal reality..me/other, mine/yours,
> etc.. )
>
> Now that I think of it, the human body is little than a big bubble, full
> of smaller bubbles, full of even smaller bubbles.. ie: membranes mostly
> full of fluids; organs, cells, etc.
>
> To me a bubble is a good metaphor for the realities that we create for
> ourselves, using our (god-given?) imaginations, our belief systems and
> our programming. When two or more "bubbles", or personal realities
> collide, then there are any number or possible consequences.
>
> So, I repeat, "you can be in my bubble, if I can be in yours".. : )
> and, if you don't like my bubble, please don't pop it, just let it waft on
> by, on the breezes of happenstance, or whatever.. ; )
>
> Scott.

Alright; Now I am curious! What are artificial boundaries? Are not all boundaries made up? Now I think WE may be on to something here. There are a allot of people around that couch on manufacturing boundaries and this is amusing to me that you might pertain to the idea that new boundaries are not real! What are all these people doing then when [especially woman over forty] say to me when they say you should have known me when I was younger, I used to do everyone, now I have boundaries? I have a problem with this in the first place, if you hear the same thing from a beautiful woman you ask out and she sayz this to you, you have to turn you head in amazement and ask where the hell was I when all this was going on. Why didn’t I get a memo????

[mykil]

Nude portrait my asss, I am going out and buying a video camera today!!!

Personally Mykil , You are who you are and if you were not your "normal " out of almost control flirtatious self , you would not be you and I really appreciate YOU , so be yourself and I can tell you from my heart that without people like you , there would be less smiles in the world and we surely all need as much smile time that is possibly possible ! You always make me smile. You are a good man ! Should we do a nude portrait ! Hopefully that thought will make you laugh , besides the big hug I will embrace you upon this day ! LOL...

[shellebelle]

Hi Scott,

LOL I don't know if you created the bubble theory but I am well aware of it.

I've never had a problem with someone popping my bubble but I do not inflexible and sharp edged boxes in life or people.

My bubble is wonderful and iridescent. I have many people in it. It's a sad palce to be on the outside of though. To watch the fun of life pass by you justout of reach - for me thats how those in boxes live. Safe but out of reach of the fun and wonder that is what we are here to experience.

Mykil pointed out that I pressed the "wrong" button, so here is what I sent to him:


> Hey, everyone,
> I really wanted to revisit the "bubble theory" whatever that is.. I
> think I made it up, but I'm not sure..
>
> yet, here you (Mykil), are asking, are not all boundaries made up?? if
> you have a bubble, what have you got, an inside and an outside,
> separated by a membrane, a molecule or so thick, of water with a tiny
> amount of surfactant.. (soap or some-such..).. the boundary consists of
> hardly anything, but it's created by the dynamic tension of what is
> inside and what is not.. it's really a side effect of various forces,
> but coincidentally, it exhibits amazing properties of buoyancy,
> resilience, refraction and even.. beauty! When two bubbles meet, they
> generally pop, fuse or merge. A buncha small bubbles could make a foam,
> a froth or a lather.. but no one has to exert any real thought for a
> bubble to exist. Likewise, do we really consciously create our
> boundaries, generally? I think in general, (being more serious here.. ),
> it's often a learned response. I guess, when as a kid, you lose that
> magic openness, at the same time you learn to create boundaries. Would
> you agree, it's really a loss, as well as a gain. (Defining what is inside
> and what is "outside" one's own personal reality..me/other, mine/yours,
> etc.. )
>
> Now that I think of it, the human body is little than a big bubble, full
> of smaller bubbles, full of even smaller bubbles.. ie: membranes mostly
> full of fluids; organs, cells, etc.
>
> To me a bubble is a good metaphor for the realities that we create for
> ourselves, using our (god-given?) imaginations, our belief systems and
> our programming. When two or more "bubbles", or personal realities
> collide, then there are any number or possible consequences.
>
> So, I repeat, "you can be in my bubble, if I can be in yours".. : )
> and, if you don't like my bubble, please don't pop it, just let it waft on
> by, on the breezes of happenstance, or whatever.. ; )
>
> Scott.

[mykil]

. A day in the life and times of Mykil’s day off!

I woke this morn feeling a little stuffy and was worried I might be catching a cold. No worries, it appears to have past! So I go over to he lovely Shelley’s house to ask her where to buy some curtains for my bedroom cause I want to make it look nice and cozy, she is nude cutting hair nude with ambition in life! I ask her where on this earth shall I go look for curtains, and she talks for about ten minutes on where to buy curtains, which goes in one ear and out the other cause you know she is nude. Sooo off I go down to Burlington coat factory and check out curtains for my room. After about five minutes I am like I really don’t think I have a feminine side sooo I leave! Off to the store and buy groceries and Andy’s of course! I See all my girls there mmmmmmm and off to my house for a relaxing day at home just cleaning up. Nope my friend calls and asks me to come over and help him do a little something, so off I go. I get there and help him out for a while and start talking about his new car

Toyota Prius Hy-bred! MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM… he starts telling me about the gas mileage and showing me all the little buttons and I am like this is a babe magnet in Sebastopol, may I borrow it? He is like WHAT?? I say you know the entire eco friendly hippie chicks that I LOvE!!!!! He is probably still laughing. He hands me the key and it is just a square box and I ask him where it goes and he tells me to put it in my pocket! Hmmm ok but when I want to leave where do I put it? IN YOUR POCKET! Ohhhhh ok LMFAO!!! But????? Just keep it in you pocket and pay attention! Cool Just push this and off you go! Sooooo now I have a really nice car I may never give back. I am off and the only place I really want to be, you might guess this one? HARBIN! So I get to Harbin up over he hill and through the woods…

I am sitting In the new steam room and there really isn’t even standing room and everyone is talking about the place I tell them it kinda reminds me of a space ship and I go off on a tangent. WE land in New York City and all of us get out nude of course and everyone that comes in contact with us starts taking off their cloths and we are spreading nude love everywhere. The whole country is getting in on the spreading of this newly found nude love and the clothing industry along with the republicans have to stop us! We have already shut down Wal-Mart cause aliens are user friendly and use no plastic products that harm the environment! Hmm anywayz it was really worth the trip just to hear all the commotion I was stirring up in the steam room this goes without saying!

Off to the pools again and the eye candy was to die for. Two Japanese twins about twenty or twenty five where just stealing the show .mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm GAWDDDDD

Down to the temple to hear some self healing past life reproduction reproducing harp music and off to the prius! I still have the car and am not giving it back 47.2 miles per gallon even after going up and over the hills twice! This car even has spunk. Electric take off like 0 to 60 in six seconds or sooo. Electric is by far the best for low end power. Then diesel, then gas. I am not even sure why we use gas anymore! Even the sound surround was spectacular! I may have to avoid poor old Howard for a few days till I get my fill! I asked if he wanted me to put gas in it and he just laughed…

Anywayz now you all know what I do for entertainment on my day off!

[Zeno Swijtink]

Take good care of this cute guy

mykil, you rock, man. You're our own west county bukowski man. with just the right formatting, your prose sounds like poetry.

[shellebelle]

Hehehehe You know I am typically nude. And why didn't you comeback and get me to go to Harbin (pout - nude of course).

. A day in the life and times of Mykil’s day off!

I woke this morn feeling a little stuffy and was worried I might be catching a cold. No worries, it appears to have past! So I go over to he lovely Shelley’s house to ask her where to buy some curtains for my bedroom cause I want to make it look nice and cozy, she is nude cutting hair nude with ambition in life! I ask her where on this earth shall I go look for curtains, and she talks for about ten minutes on where to buy curtains, which goes in one ear and out the other cause you know she is nude. Sooo off I go down to Burlington coat factory and check out curtains for my room. After about five minutes I am like I really don’t think I have a feminine side sooo I leave! Off to the store and buy groceries and Andy’s of course! I See all my girls there mmmmmmm and off to my house for a relaxing day at home just cleaning up. Nope my friend calls and asks me to come over and help him do a little something, so off I go. I get there and help him out for a while and start talking about his new car
Anywayz now you all know what I do for entertainment on my day off!

[MsTerry]

I knew it. I knew it, and I said it before!
MYKIL IS RIGHTING A BOOK!
and he delivers male

mykil, you rock, man. You're our own west county bukowski man. with just the right formatting, your prose sounds like poetry.

[pjpete]

I like your style.....:)

[Melodymama]

Last night I pulled out my oils, placed my home made redwood easel next to my computer in my living room facing my TV, now I can see all three, so as to start a wondrous winter all by my lonesome, in my cave, on a hill, in the trees, in the woods. Sitting painting next to a warm fire does it for me. I went into the closet and pulled out my trunk and found all my brushes, I have many, a hundred atleast, these have been sitting in seclusion with no one to forward there beauty upon a canvas in years. I have been neglecting my duties as an artist to these little brushes knowing someday soon I would, still the time never seemed right with children under foot running about and never having a moment of peace to myself. This is what I think I am after for a while! Will I get it? Who knows, I am content in my life as of now. I am alwayz content though, so what is the difference? Is there a difference? Not really, I am connected at the hip with the conscience community at hand every step of my life and this is important to me. I am transparent to you all, yet my own evolution is a little elusive even to me! I am thinking it is good things I have do not put much stock into worrying to the extent that some seem to! I am really in no hurry to find a soul mate or a new live in roommate this is for sure. Dating and entertaining a few friends now and again seems appealing to me. Till one day someone with such a strong need will appear with her heart on her sleeve and I will not be able to stop my soul from trying to evolve her and give her the support she needs, all along knowing I will br4ak her heart, and mine. IT will only be a matter of time… This is my pattern and I know it will. Should I evolve and try the poly routine that some many adhere to? Should I stop myself from saving the next poor soul that walks into my life and has the over powering sensation that has the need that can stop a train? Hmmm only time will tell. In the mean time I will just go on with my life and do what I do best. Maybe paint a picture of a broken heart or of all of us combined as one soul in need of our own … ~P~E~A~C~E~ … ;-{

First of all, I you and I know that I am no expert on this, but the pursuit of your creative energy in the painting may bring you some answers to your questions. Yes, we are all always alone, and often also bonded to others in amazing ways. When we continue to see Love as the physical connection, we diminish how much Love is there every day in so many odd ways. I have come to understand how much the lust pushed me in my younger days, and how I think I want that again. It is just not me now, and I want to know I am led by my heart to connection, and the physical will follow. However great the physical is and can be, it is not the heart connection, and is good at blurring our vision enough to convince us we are in love. I want complete acceptance and compassion, mental, spiritual, humor, inspiration, AND amazing physical connection. So, yes, I stop by your place for a friendly flirt, and a good laugh, and we can be good friends. And, yes, I have created my own boundaries and those change as I see fit. Good friends stay, and lovers often must leave. I appreciate your honesty and wish you even more wisdom in your journey. Now, get naked and paint, and sing, scream or whatever allows your angst to vent so that you can continue to become an even more wonderful, cuter you. Laura

[justme]

Be honest, be monogamous, be yourself.

[Dixon]

Be honest, be monogamous, be yourself.

Surely you understand that, for many of us, the injunctions "be monogamous" and "be yourself" are mutually contradictory. And so, those who try to force themselves into the monogamous mold generally end up violating the "be honest" injunction.

Honest Dixon

[mykil]

Let the evolution continue!

After spending atlas a tiny tad bit of time to me; not yet entirely mind you, due to the recentness little mini dramas the ex provokes along with her needs for her children in such. I should not let her use me soooo yet I feel so much for the little ones it is extremely difficult to turn them away in there time of need. It appears to b e over thou, they are almost to the point that they will no longer need my space to call their own, the dwelling in which they have choose to occupy is well under way to be their own and they now truly can evolve past my own boundaries and they can be off to make their own…

Along with such empathy I have for the rest of the world, I hate that word BTW, I have to give myself a true sense of what I truly believe to be me, my own needs and my own true sense of desires. I have spent pretty much all my life taking care of others and now feel I can use a little caring for me. Me time is here again, not that I ever had any me time, more on the lines of I think I need some time to call my own. Being able to spend about a third of my time at my house without interruption is dull to say the least. I do need companionship, comrades and love; yes let us not forget love. I am not sure if I may fall in love again soooo soon after being in true love, but still sharing love and the company of another is important to my own creation and evolution in the day and age. Sooo who wants to be first? Joking of course yet I still cannot get the sense or feel out of my soul that I need to be loved and still want a relationship.

I do know that this is just a temporary situation in my own mind and I will get over being sooo needy, although I have dated a bit I still am reminiscing toward a situation that is more fulfilling and evolutionary for two.

I think the perfect mate would have to be sexy, a porn star in the bedroom, while being conservative in public. I true sense of herself, with her own true self evolved way past me soo as we can teach one another and I can just try to keep up! Someone that has a sense of her surrounding, being able to see past her own nose and even past mine and into the next lifetime would be a plus. Someone knowing being In the “NOW” is more of a responsibility and commitment rather that a game [games are for us not the rest of the environment]. The “NOW” consisting of the past present and future all combined as “ONE” Truly being able to see that we are here to live as one and what turns one head should also turn the other’s! Compassionate goes beyond words, beyond sight, beyond empathy! Anger is for war and does not belong in on around thru or even In the same galaxy as WE! Fighting is for the ring, even then I can’t stomach watching let alone letting it close to me! Understanding trees and the wildlife are alive and part of us all… OK enough… Spontaneous and creative and… Cute as a button… Knowing when and where to pretend to be shallow is a virtue that cannot be without, playing in the minds of others in a privilege and not a right… Knowing we are friends and kissing hugging and touching at every turn… getting along with ones self is a big turn on to me. I find most have difficulty seeing they are not alone in their own mind, teaching this is difficult. The most important thing in this world in this day and age is being able to get along with you! A big plus is to get along with a mate… OK vent for the day enjoy, laugh and presume all you need I know I will… P~E~A~C~E to all and to all a good day!