Nor'easter
06-05-2010, 02:34 AM
My Earth body has traveled around the Sun for nearly 30 years, and in that time I have felt deep isolation and loneliness. I have felt an emptiness and hungered for the love of a woman. Never was that woman there. Where was my goddess, when she should have been there? Where is the ointment I can rub on my raw emotional-psychospace? As I write this, I know when I seek a woman I am seeking a distraction(Albeit, a pleasant one). I have tried trying only to find my own heart in the crosshairs.. I try not to seek, yet I do by default. Seeking to fill my own cup. Seeking to breathe the breath of communion. ~
Would one know love if they were never fed it? How does the hand hold itself?
Garden Goddess
06-14-2010, 02:40 PM
In reply to your heartfelt post. I feel moved to say that (having been on the planet for 50 years now) women are people with hearts, and we all want to be loved.
This doesn't need to distract you from your (possibly Buddhist?) ideals. However, women have their own spiritual/life paths as well, and need to be respected as feeling humans (rather than as pleasant distractions.)
The reason for my reply is that I see relationships a wonderful in themselves but also as one of the greatest ways to explore and heal our life issues (or ego-created pain, for lack of a more useful term) in an intimate and trusting setting. To develop this trust and acceptance usually takes time.
The reasons people choose each other in relationship is that their issues mirror each other, and while this can be volatile, in a relationship where both people are conscious of the fact that their issues are dovetailing, it is a chance for real healing to occur. Thereby ending the cycle of "why does the same thing keep happening in every relationship?"
I have a friend of the opposite sex who, while he has heard all about me, doesn't talk much . From the sharing that he has done, I get the idea that - for him, I am just a pleasant distraction from the real purpose of his life.
Sure, we have had some wonderful moments together, but he doesn't realize the opportunity for true intimacy that is right in front of him.
I felt like sharing this, because you don't seem to realize that women want the same things you want. Give what you want to get. Be the friend that you want to have.
That said, I need to take stock of whether I am following my own advice!
Peace, Brother.