pool of words

[JuliaB]

I opened my mouth to speak
all the monologues of my rightousness,
the concise analysis of what and why
All the careful confessions
all the justified projections

But I really opened my mouth
To watch
these swirling thoughts escape
And drown you
That’s right,
take you down down down
With me to where I really am
To where my misery lies
Where the black of wordless pain lives

And all the pretty words fall apart,
swirling into eddys of madness
All the pretty words
All the swirling madness
All the intelligence I can muster
Deconstructed into senseless moments

I opened my mouth again
even while thrashing around
in this pool of mine
And stop…
Something in me just stops…

And I sink to the bottom of this place
nothing to breathe
but my own truth

and there at the bottom
there below all the words
an aching clarity revealed

If I am to live now
I must speak of love


---julfire